Before your desires can manifest, notice how you welcome or restrict your natural wanting. Your relationship with your desire enables you to flourish- professionally, financially, creatively, personally, intimately, sensually and spiritually. It’s one of the most fundamental connections in our lives. Knowing and celebrating your desire is not about greed or ego. Expressing your desire is not about fulfilling it. The awareness that your desire exists can be the most transformational aspect of all. Recognizing desire inspires aliveness, growth and awareness. Divine guidance reveals itself through desires. The more willing we are to hear and trust what comes through us, the more life becomes an effortless expression of our true nature.
There is an element of surrender that has to happen in order for us to open to this emerging desire or guidance. By surrender, I mean allowing it to exist without the compulsion to act on it. I remember the days in my life when I felt attracted to certain people or dreamed of certain things, but I was too afraid of the consequences of those desires. What if someone wasn’t attracted to me? What if that dream didn’t come true? I did not want to face the imagined discomfort or the failure I associated with wanting and not getting. I hid, maneuvered and tried to protect myself by becoming a master at denial. Have you ever noticed that the attempt to protect yourself is the actual source of the pain you are feeling? Denying my natural wanting was agony- because I wasn’t fully living. After many years, I was painfully congested with the energy of my unexpressed life. I could no longer identify my intuition and listen to it, because I was suffocating beneath the weight of the unspoken past.
Take a moment to feel into your willingness to trust yourself. I say willingness to trust yourself because the willingness is a relationship unto itself. Do you doubt your body when you are cold and want a blanket? How about when you’re tired and want to sleep? Do you question whether you should or should not drink water when you are dehydrated? We assume these aspects of ourselves are necessities, but they are no more essential than trusting the urge to dance, to express love, to cry, to explore our passions or to tell the truth. Let yourself want- and notice how God is loving you through this mysterious life. What are you waiting for?
With love and acceptance, Ali